Annnnnd, That's All, Folks!

You know that strange feeling when you think back on your life and wonder, wow, where did the time go...that feels like it was just yesterday? That is my exchange year, times about a thousand. I remember sitting at the desk in the Arts Guild Shop updating my blog for the first time about leaving for Brazil in one month. Now, I am updating it four days before I am on a plane back to the United States. The intensity of this "strange feeling" as mentioned above cannot be put in words. The only thing I can think to say right now is, "WHAT. THE. HELL." (excuse the language...).

I am confident that any exchange student you talk to in the coming weeks as we return home, their reaction will be about the same. It's kind of in a state of shock that we return home now. I am currently avoiding packing my bags in fear that the reality of my return date will finally hit me--because up to now, it's not real. It's just that day that will "get here...at some point", but not now. Not now.

To say that I am not excited to go home is false. I am looking forward greatly to seeing my family, friends, dear pets...sleeping in my own bed, going for Arb runs, etc. However, saying goodbye to the people I love here, not knowing when I may see them next, will be harder than saying goodbye to my family in the airport in Minneapolis.

I have changed. There is no denying it. However, the extent to which I have changed will not reveal itself until I arrive back home. I am a little worried to see what happens with that. I am worried I may not find pleasure in the same things I did before...that I won't just be satisfied getting Indian food and renting a movie from Red Box.

This year has meant a lot to me. I have learned so much about myself, and about my place in the WORLD....not just Northfield High School, or Northfield. Now, it is the world. I am empowered and ready for my next adventure. The only question remains...where will it take me?

I just wanted to thank everyone who helped make this year a success: my Rotary Club both in Brazil, and the United States, my families, in Brazil and the United States, my friends, and the other exchange students. Without all of you, none of this would have been possible. I wouldn't be sitting on my bed nearly in tears with the thought of packing up my Brazilian life. OBRIGADA!!!!!!!

Beijos do Brasil....para sempre <3